Saturday, 4 October 2014

Ideal life

‘’SOUL guides the body to the ultimate fate ‘’the smallest moment of joy to the brutal hardships we endure are all part of the systemic mechanism.Oscar wilde said  “To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.” All we got to do is try to live, do things that gives us happiness because this are the field where we can optimize our potential to fullest.

It was just like other random days classes, chatting, and so on… nothing new to get excited and thrilled just trying to do one thing at a time to galvanize ourselves from boredom. Suddenly friend of mine came up with something, ‘’ wai… football chab ba joy gay mena’’??? Said tashi with a look which was so enriching and without any hesitation i responded ‘’tub tey, gatey lu’’??  At that precise moment I was just thinking to do it, I didn’t care about what my lectures would say or classes that I would probably miss. It was so sudden but I really wanted to do it, football was something I really enjoyed irrespective of situations it seemed have a soothing effect on me.
Within a few hours after my friend came up with idea, we were already making our journey towards Sharda University where someone he knew had already fixed the match. At that precise moment The hangover of boredom that has been a plague to us for a week was nowhere to be seen..
The level of joy that it brought was always intense unmatched by any other means maybe it was because it was  something I always loved doing, though it left the body with a fatigue which last for weeks, there’s always the desire to do better than the present, a unending determination and passion to be the best . May be the lust of game was all that kept me going in a world where it’s become so monotonous and everything we do was never something we truly wanted.
It was acceptable for me moreover those where the only moment where I truly was me, moment in which it was all of me trying hard just to make it a worth one. There are not many things I like doing I guess I’m too lazy for anything but I just want to think i didn’t get the right one, trying to be optimistic, won’t say it made any big difference but just enough to keep me going a little longer, life has always been surviving against the odds and i am pretty sure people never get what they want if we did I’m sure it would totally be a different world we breath in now!

Desire can be a great evil if not sustained yet it’s an essential aspect of life without which our sole purpose of existence wouldn’t have any meaning, people trying to reach out for the what they want often turns out getting what they need, and are they happy with it ?? well.. maybe not. But they are still surviving that’s the point!!

Tuesday, 8 April 2014


Trying to find the sole reason of my existence,  always trying to remain myself of the possibilities and beautiful things the present situation brought with itself .
craving for better day then yesterday even though it was all that i wished for, yet something seemed absent and unable to point it out makes its even worse .
may be i was missing someone !!
or maybe i just need a break, all my life i have been trying to do the right thing. Always tried to avoid giving anyone a slightest reason to criticize people around me, i knew i was too weak to bear such burden so always tried to prevent it
i would't say i succeeded in doing so, but i think i tried my best. 
For a greater result there always involves a sacrifice, now i don't know what i missed because of it, but sure its something i have to figure out .
And m determined to go all the way through, really want to break free of this illusion that has been plaguing me for a decade .
Time to do my dirty laundry, and come out bright and clear .

Monday, 17 February 2014


''After a rain comes a rainbow '' that's what we usually hear when things aren't going the way we had hope for , and believe me it wasn't the greatest of time for us in a place which was so demanding  and every day we had to be at our optimal self to be of their standard .
Being able to get selected to study abroad , in repudiated collage among some of the worlds finest student , really does our parent proud more over the thrill and the excitement seems to take toll on one self due to infinite anticipation sometimes goes beyond of giving one hallucination . At that moment we become mature enough to understand how lucky we have been, blessed with a loving parent who always took our future a prime objective and almighty who blessed us with the best environment .

''With great power comes great responsibilities'', were some quotes bombarded to us by the elder and we knew what they meant , and was determinedly ready to take up any task to live up to the name . we knew our happy moment with our family was going to be paused for a while, yet it never seem to bother us our mind was fully occupied with all the promises and wonders the new place had to offer and the discomfort of living the love one behind was overweight by the excitement to explore new place .
A new place with whole new set of culture was what we were hoping and it didn't disappoint us,we had a far knowledge about it ,thanks to all those 21 century gadget that has become inevitable in our world . but it was easier said than done. when we face a problem we usually turned out to our parents or teachers  who one way or other always came up with a solution, we usually didn't have to go through all those hardship ourselves, well that's what we missed out consequently a minor problem we faced seemed big and in the quest for a solution we always ended up messing it up .... But life goes on we struggle yet never broken , take every steps towards what we are destined .